Last teenager day

Being grown up was the most excited moment that I faced when I was a little. It seemed that I become taller, bigger, can try something new and have birthday party, also got a lots of presents as well. PRESENTS! the most I expected on my day. while I writing this blog, my mind just flashback to 19 parties that I've been through. I didn't remembered my first to fourth birthday party, but I remembered when I had the fifth, it was celebrated in my kindergarten school. It was so excited to have a party with my peers. the more of them, the more I got the presents :D

yeah, it seemed I always celebrated my first to twelfth with my families around me. Start the thirteenth, when my teenager life began, I started to have birthday dinner with my friends. so excited at that time coz it was my first time I could go hang out with them. and so continue until my sweet seventeen. of course I still remembered those moments. being 17 was great, I got ID card and could drive as well even I didn't want to because I've hit a big container while I was practicing in the past. My sweet seventeen was a blast for me. I dressed up like a princess with blue dress that i worn. blue, my favourite colour. however, i didn't satisfy with my make-up. I prefer my mom do make up on me rather than the salon did.

my journey become teenager still going. I felt like even I was older than my peers, it seemed that they were older than me. they can do make up by them self, so different with me. i just knew foundation and lipstick. yeah...it also because I don't like make-up yet at the moment. I don't know why, but I felt strange when I saw myself on mirror with make up. I like the natural me, however I don't like my natural hair which looked like LION HAIR. my siblings always teased me 'LION HAIR' because of my thick and curly hair (I do bonding now). just let them know that I'll praise my thick hair when we are old in the future  and see who is the baldy one? haha

Being eighteen, just have a small dinner party with 2 friends and 1 new friend because I just fought with the two others. that's why we still friends till now even sometimes I felt like they are not the 'FRIENDS' who I'm looking for. like in high-school, i felt they were never looking for me when we were in different class. they just looking for me if they need me. like now, they have never asked my news or post something on my FB wall. maybe they'll post something tomorrow on my wall just to say 'Happy birthday, Metta! wish u all the best' thats all. seemed like I was the one who really sad. But, I won't it bother me. If they didn't want to say hi to me, I'll say hi to them first. or I could find someone else.

Nineteenth, the happiest moment. I just got a birthday surprise from my classmates in college. It really surprised that we just knew each other for a week then they gave me a birthday surprise. I was thinking 'what my best friend did on my birthday back then?' just gave me a present. kinda happy at the moment.

I've been worried since last 3months. OMG, I'll be twenty soon. it was different when I was in the past. it seemed like this, "Yey! I'll be fifteen next month". and, I almost didn't like being a child at the moment, but now, i really want to return to those moments. yeah yeah, if i could turned back the time.

Well....my teen journey will ended up soon in around 5 hours (Australia time) and welcome you, twenty, thirty, forty, fifty and so on. in my twenty journey, i hope that my parents will treat me like an adult and also i hope i would have more confidence to choose my own path. mostly, i should be more like an adult than a child. most of all, I wish i could be the better person than the past.