I'm down down and feel like so sad being scold as a stupid. Sometimes, I just sick when my brother scold me as a stupid and the other 'stupid' words in Indonesian which I felt they are too rude to be said. I tried to not to cry because I know I'm such a fragile and easily become sad. but I always fail.
It's not such a first time he scold me. but yeah like often when I did something wrong. I know that he is not an evil brother, but I just don't like his attitude and scold 'stupid'. I just want him to know that everybody has feelings. they can feel sad about his words.
do you know about the experiment between good and bad words which sticked on the food? I remembered that experiment when somebody sticked good words and bad words in each food. As a result, the food with the good words still in good condition, however the food with the bad words become rotten and cannot be eaten. It means that praises can make people happy and be good in the future? When I knew about this kind f experiment, I felt like my parents should support and praise me even when I down, not scold me as all of them were my faults. well, I just believe those would happen in TV drama.
But sometimes, I also think that praises might cause you too happy and you wouldn't survive if you faced such a big problem. and when somebody scold you, it makes you to do a lot better and you wouldn't dare to repeat the same mistakes.
Honestly, I don't like being scolded as stupid creature. I try to smile but always failing with tears. because I remembered Buddha's teaching about karma. If something bad or good happened to me, it means that's the result of my good or bad acts. and He always encouraged to not being angry if something bad happened to us, however keep smile that our bad karma has bloomed and we have to do good things again so we could receive the good result too. What you plant, those will be yours.
Yeah...I was scolded as a stupid again today. I feel sad. But, I've to practice more so I won't sad easily in the future but just happy that my bad karma has bloomed and blew away. I think I really need meditating to calm my feelings and thinkings. considering to my assignments? Oh ow!
So glad that I feel relieved after I write this blog. It's better than throw away my furnitures, haha.
alright, continue to my study.
benkyou benkyou! (study study!)
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